Happy Birthday Dear Sister

Katie la rue (I made that up just now)

I miss you all days but on your Birthday I wished I could have done something super fun and girlish and sisterly.

Growing up, I never remember not liking her or being annoyed by her. It seems odd but I have always loved her (of course, that's not the odd part) but I have always liked her. We never fought or argued, we had a special "knock" we did on the wall we shared as we had different rooms. We once danced and did the can can singing the tune of America's Funniest Home Video hoping that someone would "sneak'' down and video tape us and send it into the show. I always felt protective of her, always wanted to be an example.

Anyway, enough of the cheese. I love you Katie and I am very glad that your not only my sister, but my friend- the best.

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I'm tired.

Two weeks of harshly interuppted sleep is getting to me. Getting tonsils & adenoids out sucks.

Hopefully tomorrow when Carsy wakes up he will allow me to speak and look at him without screaming and pushing me away. Mornings are rough 'round our place lately.

That is all....

A quick peek

My favorites are yet to come!!!! I LOVE YOU little brother, can't believe I took your senior pictures! Crazaaay.

No words, just a picture.

Do Do Doooo

My little C is very very very angry that he feels so lousy. He takes out most of his anger on me. It mad me cry until my Mom pointed out that we take out our angst on the people we love most. He has been feeling very sick to his stomach (on top of everything else!) so we were prescribed suppositories which seem to help. Nothing worse than having your kid very uncomfortable and being helpless.

On to happier subjects! Carson's party was really really fun. It was a beautiful sunny day outside so we were able to have the party outside (but this also made it hard for decent pictures.) Carson felt very special, received some awesome gifts and ate lots and lots of cake (frosting.) Here are the rest of the pictures of our fun Circus day.

Tear to the eye!

Listen to these adorable talented children sing "Landslide."

Sweet.

Tomorrow!

I wanted to put a happy picture up and not discuss today. I do want to say HOW GRATEFUL I am that having my child's tonsils & adenoids out is the worst health issue he has had to deal with. My children are happy, healthy, sweet and loved. Its all I could ask for.

Here is a picture I took when we went bug & butterfly catching. I cannot express the deep love I have for my family.

Tomorrow is a new day, isn't it wonderful we get to start over every morning? A little more patience, a little more kindness, a smile at a stranger, an extra hug or kiss, a note passed to a friend, a phone call, a quiet bath all to yourself. So many little ways we can make each day better. Here is for a better tomorrow!

Update

Today has been rough. Thankfully the surgery went well, he had minimal bleeding & it went without complications. Carson had a very hard time when he woke up, he was in so much pain and was so confused and afraid. That was the hardest part. I couldn't do anything to console him, he just screamed. Finally after throwing up a few times, lortab & a shot of Demerol (spelling?) he calmed down and fell asleep in my arms. We stayed at the hospital for 2 hours so they could monitor him and make sure he would do okay at home. I have been giving him his pain medications every 4 hours, if I don't the pain gets un bearable for him. He also has his new sippy with pedialyte and ice, he won't let that thing out of his grasp.

Tomorrow I have to go to work and I cannot tell you how much I dread it. Luckily Carsy gets to be spoiled and loved by Nana all day long. But its not me. Its probably much harder on me than it is on Carson anyway. Oh I cannot wait for my little sweetie to feel better.

P.S. Olivia is doing very well. She fed Carson some applesauce (that he didn't want) today. She held his hand and watched Backyardagins for a while too.

A cute birthday pic

Hard to get great pictures in the middle of the day but here is the Birthday boy, soon to be sans tonsils! There are so many more pictures to come, stay tuned!

Ugh

I don't want to make this long because I don't want to dwell on this situation any longer than I have to. Carson is getting his tonsils & adenoids removed tomorrow and I am a wreck. I was OK until the ENT doctor said "I just want you to know what to expect, he will be in pretty severe pain for 7-10 days and won't be fully recovered for probably 3-4 weeks." He followed that up with "He also cannot go to daycare or with groups of large people or resume normal activity for 7-10 days."

I work and therefore cannot stay and lay with my baby for 7-10 days. I cannot take away the pain or confusion of why there is pain in the first place.

I hate it.

I know it doesn't seem like a big deal but I cannot BEAR the thought of him getting an IV placed and getting put under anesthesia and then having parts of his body removed. He just turned three, how could I be letting my newly turned 3 year old get such a lousy thing done! I just wish I could fast forward one month from now because the next few weeks I know I'm going to be a weepy & exhausted mess.

Sneak Peek of the Partay!

Inspiring

These last few weeks I have been missing my aunt Suz and my Grandpa. I'm not sure why these last weeks have been more tender on my heart than others, but they have. Two seperate instances have given me comfort and reminded me that they see me still and love me.

I saw a man in the grocery store who looked like a very "healthy" (aka chubbier) version of my Grandpa. He noticed me do a double take and smiled kindly. I went out to my car and cried for a few minutes, wishing it had been Grandpa smiling at me. The next day at work I was reading old blog posts. Under one post there was a comment from Grandpa. He told me he loved my blog, thought I was clever, loved me and was proud of me. I felt his love.

A week or so later I was thinking about Suz as well. As I was walking into our front hall our engagement picture caught my eye. All around our picture was matting so people could sign it when they came to our reception. My eyes went directly to "I love you" Aunt Suz.

My cousin Kim is having her third child, a boy. Her father passed away recently, quite suddenly. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain she has been feeling but has been a rock as she carried on through the final months of her pregnancy. She will have the little guy any day now and I hope she remembers that this little baby that is coming from Heaven just left her Dad's arms.

I believe Heaven is real and its such a comfort! Its nice to know that the physical limitations and sickness's are gone there. That our loved ones are perfect and happy, careless and free.

Little C

Happy Birthday my little sweetheart. I just love you so much.

Being a Mom

Being a Mom is full of this....
Kids fighting, whining and fighting.


But at the end of the day what being a Mom is about, is this........
Kids loving each other (something that could not feel any better is to see your kids loving and helping each other.)

Happy Mothers Day

Today is also our anniversary (meaning Kit and me.) Six years ago today, we got married and started this roller coaster called love, life & marriage. Through any ups or downs, happiness or sorrow we have been together and come out stronger and happier. Love you STOMH.

everything is amazing, nobody is happy.

Loved this clip. Your SITTING in a chair UP IN THE SKY!

enjoy

It started badly

Monday's are usually NOT the funnest days of the week. Today was no exception and quite honestly it was one of the worst Monday's ever. This weekend I have been sick with a nasty head cold, this morning I woke up and felt like I had been hit by a train. Regardless I got the kids ready, I got myself dressed (that was the extent of what I could do) and out the door we went.

Only 4 minutes after dropping off the kids at Luisa's my car (big yella) was hit another car who ran a red light. I was turning right at the light but could not see past a big black truck so I waited until the light turned green to go right. All of the sudden out of no where I was smacked in my left side.

Did anyone stop to be a witness? No. So was there a citation given to Ms. Run a red light? No. Will my insurance go up? Yes. Do I have any extra money AT ALL for a deductible? No! Was I angry? Yes. Did I cry. YES!! Was I hurt?? No. I was very grateful my kids weren't with me. As minor as it was, it would have scared them. Nobody wants to see Lindsey when her kids were scared by an idiot who ran through a red light and could have seriously hurt them. Nobody.

Big yella sustained much less damage than the Oldsmobile, I walked away with a broken headlight and a little crunch. I tried to go into work but one look at me and I was sent home. I slept for the remainder of the day (in between taking cold medicine and blowing my nose.) Although this Monday was the PITS I'm hoping Tuesday will be a little brighter.

(Please Tuesday... please???)